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I am so unbelieveably unhappy. I want to cry and scream. I'm so scared. I'm so worried. I'm so...dead. My heart hurts so much, with no reason as to why. I'm crying right now as I'm writing this, silent tears, but tears all the same. I keep everything so deep inside. My family doesn't even notice because im the twin who can hold herself together, who can handle herself in situations in which my sister can't. I'm struggling and I'm left behind because I can do everything myself. It hurts so much to know even if I ask for help, it isn't given because I am seen as the twin with the smarts and capability of doing things that need to be done. I hur

I don't think this guy that likes me understands the word no, I had a great time with him the night before. He finds out I wasn't thinking about being with him, I was thinking about being with the guy I like. Well he gets angry, as I would expect, because I was truthful to him. Now me telling him this the next day seems somewhat harsh, I know, but I didn't want to hurt him. Well he's yelling at me, and hes upsetting me saying I'm worthless and a horrible person. I don't talk to him for 3 hours. He texts me saying hes sorry, he overacted, and all that jazz. Well I was still hurt about what he said and decided not to talk to him. Well ignoring